It has been a long time since i logged into livejournal.
During my absence, many things had happened. Some are good while others are bad.
I shall write in chronological order.

It was the starting of year 1 semester 2. Many of my friends told me that this semester is the best chance to score 4.0. I doubted my ability to score 4.0. However, i told myself that i have to put in substantial effort in order to achieve my goal. From then on, i tried my best to finish my tutorials, understand my lectures and clarify my doubts.

Throughout semester 2, i encountered numerous set backs. Those set backs includes my FA mid sem test. When i received my paper, i was taken aback even though i had braced myself for the worse. I thought, ''My god! How can it happen to me?" At that time, i warned myself that this test result is a stern reminder to me. Thereafter, i started to put in extra effort in my FA.

One false alarm that happened to me. When i thought of it, instantly, i laughed. It was regarding my busistats test which holds 5%. The test requires me to draw graph but i did the other way. When the test was over, my friends and i were discussing the answers. Their answers differ from mine by a whole lot. Since they approached the question the same way, i thought i was doomed because the question worth 10 marks. Throughout that whole day, my face never show a single sign of happiness.

At the end of the semester, i had my final sprint in the library. I recap the various subjects and went for the exams.

I wonder is it just me or everyone is experiencing the same thing. Everytime after FA exam, I will be very worried. Is it just me? Or everyone?

Alright i am tired. I shall stop here.

Now i have set the benchmark. I will strive harder to cross the line and reach a greater height.
Alright.
Perhaps thats how i work.
Testing, experience, strive with full power.
I would love to...

The drive is still there... But i wonder why it is not that overwhelming.
I set out with great determination and I thought it will sustain for a long time. Never did i realise that it is dying slowly. Why?
No motivation. No encouragement. No support.
Okay never mind. I will handle it. Come on.
Nowadays, i have been either jogging or stay at home or play basketball.
I have been thinking.
Yes. It will be an extra burden to have one.
You will have to worry about this worry about that.
WHy must go on?
LOL
i dont understand. Really. Me myself also dont understand.
Give myself 10000 reasons but i will still think the same old way.
So i think i will enlighten myself.
Today, i kind of enlightened. LOL
I felt so relax. Not tense. HAHAHA
Now, the only focus will be aiming for the best.
I guess that is my ONLY inspiration.
Or maybe is someone that i am willing to strive on for.
I will never run out of fuel when there is support.
LOL
Ok. Now 10:08pm 15 August 2010, i tell myself to start. No matter what. I will not lose the determination i have now.

When i reached home, i was already so tired and still need to rush projects.
All i gets is rantings, disatisfaction. Hello. My fault for overlooking certain things like curtains or doors. But would it be better if don say out?
I am so shag, fuck up because of bad test of my most confident subject and the rantings viciously goes in cirles.
I know that people after working whole day will feel very tired and things may not go ur way or what u wan may not happen. Life is just like that. Yes i did rant at people before but i do feel bad after that because when i reflect, i tot that it is too small a thing to be irritated. Adapt to it or influence the environment. Its minor things or trival things but somethings when accumulated will have a big backfire
I know that some things have to help to adjust to people's demands but if i overlooked it, pls Say in a nice way and i will appreciate it. Thats it. Thanks.

Selection of cross disciplinary subjects was never easy.
The starting time is 10 am and we have to wake up earlier to prepare to spam the server LOL.
Therefore, my clique planned to wake up at 9:15 in the morning and skype.
Furthermore, I slept at 3. That means i only have 6 hours and 45 minutes to sleep!
In the end, no one is online except shers when i went online.
She was annoyed when many of her friends ''hao xin'' ask her about her choice.
LOL
Also, we was so worried about shimin because we planned to skype at 9:15am.
She didnt appear at that time and we msged her.
In the end, she instructed someone to help her do and she went to work.
What a relieve.
I was given 14 choices to choose
Most of them did not appeal to me so i just ignored most of them.
After thorough evaluation, i came up with a conslusion. These are my 5 choices starting from the most preferred: basic calculus for business, japanese, public speaking, sociology, water technology.
Hope my choices will allow me to do well ba.....
School starting soon and my propellor is getting ready to allow me soar up to the sky.
Aim Aspire Achieve.

An unprecedented event had happened to me the day before yesterday.
I was cycling from bedok to pasir ris. I was cycling on a straight path listening to songs.
Out of a sudden, i rammed onto a cyclist. Our tyre hit each other and i was pushed forward by an invisible force. I guess it was inertia that caused my to fly forward.
In the end, blood trickled down my cheek and flows down in rivulets. The fresh red blood dripped profusely. I suffered a deep cut under my eyebrow and abrasion on my cheek.
There was this passerby offered me a tissue and i used it to wipe my wounds.
It was 12am and i reached home. My aunty saw my face and was stunned. After regaining her concious, she suggested i should visit the doctor. Luckily there is a clinic nearby which serves 24 hour. However, the consultation fee cost me a bomb. 70 dollars.
Muofo.
Now sitting infront of the computer looking at the reflection of my face. Wondering when will my face heal?

Today i went to school with plaster on my face. It was so embarrassing and so ugly.
I will not go out anymore until my face heals. Someone commented my face is swollen. Yea, its true. LOL I felt that i did not contribute much in the commskill project because i really don have any idea. Kind of useless in a sense. But i will try to think of ways to improve the projects.

I used to dread going to school. In poly, i looked forward to.
I guess it is the special group that makes me wanna go to school.
Mainly talking crap with them.
Without them , i guess i will be in the library and become a bookworm.
Therefore, my poly life is fun filled instead of boring.

In the mid sem test, i can predict the results. It is going to be fcking ugly.
I hope there is miracle. I learnt my mistake.
Sorry to myself. I will not commit again. NEVER.

At the end of mid sem test, my friends and i went to watch ''killers''.
SUper funny. Hilarious. Quite awkward though. But i enjoyed it la. The show is super funny and i laughed from the start till the end. Hope to have more of these kind of thing to make more content in my life.

But there is a major problem in our group. Which is agreed by all of us. Indecisive. LOL
Its like Arthur percival. Indecisive. How to solve leh..............

Holiday is just a another term for e learning But no computer is involve.
Because we stilll have to finish our project phase. I guess we really have to do better in projects. I hope to achieve something. Lets together ba.

WA. Never ending . Aim asipire and achieve.

1 month had pass since the start of Poly first semester. I was posted to 1A01.
This class is full of joy,warmth and perhaps love.
Just recently when i accompanied my friends to eat lunch, i did not bring extra cash to buy food. Upon knowing i got no money, my friends offered a helping hand without hesitation.
I was touched and almost cried. (exxagerating) This is the warmth i get from my classmates.
When i returned them the money i owed the next day, they declined to accept.This further made me feel guilty because i am owing them money.
The moment i mentioned about the money i owe, they gave me a wierd looking face. They were irritated by my persistently incessant pleas to accept my money.
In the end, stricken by guilt, i kept quiet and never blurt out anything related to money.

3 days ago, sm , john, roy, shers and i went to safra. We had two games of bowling.
It was exciting and fun! We laughed non-stop throughout the two games.
Sm wanted to imitate me but she does not have the strength to balance herself. In the end, she just throw the bowling ball as though he is throwing a 20 cent coin towards the pins.
Almost every throw ended up in the gutter.
Another funny incident happened. John said, '' if u (roy) strike, i treat u to aston on monday!''
Roy took up the bet and aimed to strike with every tries he had. After a few tries, Roy managed to do the unexpected, he strike! John's jaw dropped and stare blankly at Roy.
After recovering from his stun, John laughed out loud and accept that he had to treat Roy to aston.
However, today which is monday, John did not carry out what he suppose to do. HAHAHA Maybe i should remind him tomorrow.

Oh another even funnier incident happened outside the lift. Roy sm , shers and I was standing outside the lift. We were discussing which place we want to go. Half way through the discussing, Roy's laptop flung out of his arm. Sm, who was standing beside him, raised her leg and screamed! We laughed non stop.

As we can see that my life in poly is very enjoyable and i hope to remain this way. Nites

I have seen many people hoping for this and hoping for that.
In the end, they didn't get what they hoped for.
Why is this so?
Personally, i think in order for hope to come true, action must be taken.
An example will be saving up money.
I hope i can save up a lot of money.
So, do i just spend money like before? OF course not ? ....
The favourable action will be keeping a portion of money in the piggy bank.
In a few weeks, i will have what i hoped for....

Another example is getting good results.
I hope i get good results.
Am i going to just do what i am doing now? of course now.
The action i am going to take is study more than what is needed.
In this way, i will achieve what i hoped for which is good results.

In other words, YOu reap what you sowed.
WHat u do will have consequences, be it good or bad. But always do good things.
The results may not surface early but in the long run, you will see the results.
Just like a seed. Day by day, month by month , year by year, it will become a big tree where you can take shading and enjoy the fruits hanging on the tree.

I hope everyone will do well in life for the coming years and all will have good lives!
My action for my hope will be posting this up and let everyone see.