I cant control. WHY?
Am i used to it?
At least i got smile.
I can choose to avert the situation, easily.
I can
seriously i can.
But with practises.
One time cannot , try it again.
I am afraid i may get a cardiac arrest.
ok.
I can do it again .
Wish me good luck.
Another thing is that i have been eating healthily for the past 3 days.
Broccoli, watermelon, pears, water.
Hope they don fail me.
I have been feeling weak.
LOL
nights
Letting it triumph over me time and again.
Even though i told myself to control, but it manage to break my ring of amulets.
Although i managed to conceal my facial expression excellent enough, but my mentality is still there.
It is frustrating,infuriating,appalling.
Big matter are perceived as big matter. Small matter are perceived as big matter too.
This is totally exhausting.
I do not know how long i can stand on my ground firmly without any signs of falling.
But i can say that one day, i am going to let the emotions triumph over me totally.
Leaving me totally break down.
And by then, the close one will drift away and friends will perish.
I don't want it to happen.
Change.
One word. easy to type out and say.
But there is a long, maybe endless trail of jerky roads behind this word.
Start off with a wide lips.
I will try.
If it doesnt work, i will have to revise my ways to triump over my emotions.
Above are all the negative things.
Below will be some positive things.
Life is like a boat.
Sometimes will meet some storms and lightning. Dark and violent.
Sometimes will be drifting in a calm and peaceful ocean with the horizon cutting the sun.
I met a good friend which can communicate well with me.
Hard to believe it but we barely know each other.
As time passes, we will know more.
This friend is worth knowing. Hope our friendship goes endless.
As all can see that my negative things overshadowed positive things.
Pouring out is nice.
Hope it will be vapourized into thin air and travel far away.
night. 1:26am
Hows holiday?
So far so good, yea.
Prom night.
I won a speaker in a lucky draw.
Not bad. Pretty good.
Some rebates also good.
Ninja assassin. U watch out.
Why?
arh!!!
Don't ever mention it again.
Some people are pessimistic.
I don like it.
I am one too.
U say angel
I say devil.
U say good
I say bad
U say best
I say worst
U say not bad
I say not good.
U say pretty
i Say ugly
U say optimistic
i SAY pessimistic
U say heaven
I say hell
U say better
I say worser
U say bright
i say dull
U say hi
I say bye
I worked for 3 days consecutively, also i have been feeling tired all these while.
So!!!! I decided to QUIT QUIT QUIT!
HAHA
I asked myself,''without work, how am i going to spend my holiday?''
Funny, yet good question.
I think i will have to slack and at the same time, i will go out and search for job.
My friend will ''pull'' me into the company he is working right now at 26 november.
The pay was acceptable.
I wonder who is going to the 4 polytechniques' OPEN HOUSE!!!
I want to go and find out how poly is like and what courses they offer as well as what the courses is like.
I do not want to end up regretting .
So who is with me?
call me to go open house. haha
But ultimately, i have to get my results before i can make decision.
I am afraid i get an undesired grades which leads to no where.
With that i wish everyone and I a good luck .
Ok o lvl was difficult. I doubt i could do as well as in prelims.
I must say that prelim i was lucky so it does not serve as a good gauge.
OK. Enough said. Holidays!
7/11/09.
I started working with CLP.
It was the same hard labour work.
Exhaustion,frustration etc... was unavoidable/inevitable.
I merely earned 35 dollars for 7 hours.
Acceptable?
10000 drops of perspiration.IS it worth it?
No! Of course no.
I still clinging on to my mini dream.
Get a motor bike next year, perhaps june or july.
So i think at the rate of work, i doubt i can make it.
In the end, i still need to search for a job with higher pay.
What can i expect? With no qualification, at most $1000 a month.
From today onwards, i will eat less than 10 dollars a day as compared to 20 dollars per day.
This will decrease my expenditure on food.
With that i would like to wish that i can save up enough money.
Where to find a job? i Think i will go walk the job... LOL new phrase.
I will walk in city area,looking for a job which reaches my budget.
CRITERIA... air conditioned! sweat less! Filled with new friends! easily accessible! The last and most important is LONG HOURS!
I dont care if the pay per hour is low, e.g 5 dollars .. But long hours will bring an overall of the amount that exceeded my daily pay expectation.
Therefore i willl reach my destination
i felt lethargic so i does not want to continue writing that letter.
Social studies is a energy drainer!
lets do some calculation.
For social studies, i learnt 9 chapter including remote topics such as bonding singapore, health care in britain and singapore.
ok let say is 7.
7 subjects took me 10 days to memorize.
In the end, i will only need to write for 45 minutes.
Is it worth it???
THE ANSWER IS WORTH IT!!!!
IF NOT I WILL NOT BE STUDYING!!!
LOL
come on social studies. go for it !!!!
arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
starting from?
Tonight.
The fear in me grew stronger each day as the imminent exams come closer.
I wish i can finish the exam now but it is never going to be possible.
All i can do is to keep on striving and do work incessantly.
Now, what to do now is going to be pragmatic for my preparations?
Several options pop out in my head right now.
1) changi airport. Reason: air-conditioned,rather peaceful, can stroll around when fatique sets in.
2) Macdonald!!! Reason: air-conditioned, aroma helps to stimulate brain functions... LOL????
3) void deck Reason: good lightings available, quiet most of the time
4) Beach's stone table. Reason: extremely peaceful, perfect lighting(in the day)
*The place should provide a condusive environment ,the best of well-being of student and the convenience for both student and public.
lsy
pasir ris st 71 blk 713 #13-575
singapore 510999
10 october 2009
Myself
student
Coral secondary school
pasir ris st 51 501 #09-176
singapore 519667
Dear sir/madam,
My choice of studying place in Eastern area.
Firstly, i would like to thank you for giving me the opportunity to voice out my choice of studying place in Eastern area.This proved that we can be trusted to make such an important decision.
I was given four places in total. Namely; Beach's stone table,void deck, mac-donald and changi airport.
After much consideration and thorough evaluation, i have come up with a decision.
I have considered the environment's conductivity,how it benefits the well being of the student,and the convenience for both student and public
I believe that beach's stone table is the best for our student.
There are various reason why i chose beach' stone table.
Firstly, it provides a place where perfect lighting is provided in the day. This is very important because the perfect lighting from the sun will enhance the learning ability of our students and as well as lessen the strain to the eyes. This will prevent our students from getting eye illness such as myopia.
Secondly, the place is rather quiet but it comes with incessant splashing of waves. The splashing of waves does not affect the ability to concentrate as the stone table is located quite a distant from the shore.Also, the splashing of waves can be treated as a relaxation therapy for our students. The rather quiet environment can allow our student to concentrate fully on what they are doing. Moreover, the place is shaded from the scorching hot sun. This will allow student to study in a cool and well lit area. Occasional noise from passer-by will not affect our students badly Thus,there will not be any severe forms of hindrance to our student in regards to the environment.
Thirdly, the stone tables are for public user. Ther are plenty of them in the beach,all are shaded. This will prevent any forms of arguements over the stone table. This is particularly important because during this crucial period, the last thing we want student to do is to get involved in anyforms of activities that will jeopardies thier journey to examinations. Thus, this will benefit both the public and our students.
The reason why i did not choose the other 3 places is because firstly, the conductivity of the place.
to be continued... very tired,,,
My bicycle had been missing since 5 months?
I yearn for a new bike so i can resume my roaming in singapore!
East coast park changi beach bedok pasir ris park tampines . All are my favourite cycling areas.
I am not those who likes to do stunts so dont think i am a biker.
I spent my times mostly observing the scenery and the ships.
I guess i have to wait a long long time before i get to cycle with someone.
mmmm oh yes!
I saw her in school.
shes nice. yes many dont agree .
Nowadays i dont know why i likes to graze. i Mean eat. i am not an animal.
Maybe the stress that drained almost all my energy that i had to replenish it frequently.
I had made several blunders in my exams. NO is alot of blunders
Let me list out.
Practical.chem. i had gotten the wrong fucking gas !!!
Physics i got the wrong graph plot.
geo. i forgot about culture.
maths number pattern suck .
Arh!
many ppl don like taylor swift .
WHy?
LOL she is nice.
After exam i will go training.
ANywhere anyplace.
Remembering how we bicker, i began to think.
If i let u, u will overdone it.
Brain squasher
Many will be relieved after 1 month plus time.
Some will work, some will rot and some will play.
haha
Thinking about the past, i started to regret.
My life had many fluctuation. Sometimes happy, some times sad, sometimes high, and sometimes tired.
Firstly, i agree that people around me are my mirrors.
WHY DO I SAY SO.
When i looked at a person doing something stupid, i will think he is a retard.
This is how i think of him.
People will think i am a retard when i do the same thing. Isn't it??
Thus, he is my mirror.He can help me portray a image of myself if i were to do it.
Sometimes in a situation, we must take a step back and see. Try to put myself in other people's shoe.
This is a very high social skill which require patient to acquire.
I do not acquire such skills.
Obvious isnt it?
Many people just see the negative side and will remember only negative things than positive things.
For example, there was once whereby i helped the person. Yet he could not remember it and turned his back on me in times of trouble.
Who is to blame?
AFter a thorough thought, i have to say it was my fault.
Who ask me to help him?
NO one!
Come on. i have to pull through. HEHE the darkest period is before dawn. Soon, the sunlight will shine its ray throught the blue sky.
That is the time when i can grin from ear to ear.
The suffocating smoke had caused dryness in my throat. Every breath i took was simply unbearable, let alone the new born baby who was sleeping on the small squarish bed.
This had occured for more than a year. Until this fateful night,i decided to stand up to him and reprimand him.
A few days ago, my cousin had their first offspring. It was a innocent girl who had little hands and legs. Cute looking baby. She was brought into our house. Brand new baby mattress was already stained with unendurable stench. The baby was placed onto the mattress. She must be feeling uneasy.Often, she took a breath and burst into waves of wail. Although the baby was here, my cousin still smoke as though whole house belonged to himself. Being the baby's uncle, i was so concerned about her growth and was afraid that the smoke might cause organ to malfunction. I tried giving obvious hints and gestures that showed my displeasure but it seemed like an entertainment to him rather than a hint. I was infuriated. Yesterday, my cousin lit up his cigarette, again. The moment i smelled the smelly smoke, my whole body shot upwards. I pointed at him with my index finger and shouted,''OI! Can u don't smoke infront of the baby?'' His face devoid of expression. He was stunned by my first ever attempt to stop him. He regained his concious. His face turned maliciously fierce. the sour taste of fear rose in the back of my throat and my heart thumbed wildly against my ribcage.Bead of perspiration danced down my forehead as i stood there staring at my cousin . All my other family members came out of their rooms. RUbbing their fatigue eyes, trying to gained a clearer eyesight. My family members knew what was happening. TO advert any conflict, they started advicing my cousin to quit smoking and told him how his smoke had affected the health of the whole of our family. My cousin displayed undisguised guilt on his face. Tears started drowning his eyes. He took his bunch of keys and stomped off the house.
NExt day, all my family members was worried sick. Father was kneading his flesh under his eyebrows and others were walking back and forth. Suddenly, the still door started to shake and slowly slided opened. It was my cousin. After a night of thought, he finally get out the world that had enveloped him in solidute. Althought he could not quit but he assured to us that he will not smoke in the house again. After this incident, our family started radiating happiness and all conflicts were solved peacefully ever since.
Gushes of wind blew through my living room as the curtain flips up and down.
I was sitting in front of my sister's laptop writing this post.
The constant blowing of wind from my fan disturbed my fringe.
My leftover banana skin lied on top of a packet of mamee which i have eaten ten minutes ago.
I will be constantly updating my livejournal because i want to improve my vocabulary range.
Therefore, i marked the first entry of my goal of a hundred and twenty entries before my O level exams.
I will be writing narrative titles from O level specimen papers. I hoped to attain a top level of vocabulary.
During Jimmy's last holiday,he asked me to tutor him. I agreed instantly as i was sure that i want to help him perform well in his exams. I ordered him to do one specimen paper per day. I would mark and add comments on his paper to encourage him. The terms,''good work! And excellent'' was often used to encourage him. He would feel exhilarated after reading those comments. However,in order to push him to the limits, I specially ordered a thick pile of papers from prestigous school such as Oxford Secondary school. The questions they asked were insane.It requires higher level order thinking. Being a student in neighbourhood school,Jimmy was never exposed to these questions.Jimmy faced a lot of troubles solving Mathematics questions. His confidence level decreased tremendously.Almost all the time, i would see him kneading his flesh under his eyebrows,thinking of how to solve those problems.Until a point whereby droplets of perspiration dropped continuously from his chin and his clothes plastered to his body. Of course, the number of encouragement words decreased sharply. Jimmy was utterly disappointed with himself.
It was a mistake that i overlooked his depression and caused him to be upset. Here I am standing in front of Jimmy's coffin.I striked a match and lit up the crumpled certificate filled with my encouragement words.At the same time,my tears overflowed my eye socket and obscured my eyesight as a orange flame appears in front of me.
HOW WAS MY STORY? tragic isn't it?!?!?!
- Mood:creative
Success seems largely a matter of HANGING on after others have let go. I like this one
Those that climb a tall tree has won the right to eat the fruit. I like this too
Genius is 1 percent inspiration and 99 percent perspiration. I love this.
I found these three quotes in youtube video. I believe in it because they make sense.
Now,left 5 months only. Just stress for this period and thats it.
Your destiny is so called ''set'' after this 5 months.
GO FOR IT.
From young,about 10 years old,which is Primary 4. I stepped into the boundary of basketball game.
The excitement of scoring is exhilarating.
I used to be a (noob) baller who only knows how to shoot using ugly method.I did not know how to lay up.
I constantly asked my fellow playmates how to lay up.
They laughed at me and say,''u just shoot can already!''
Being said that young people are curious, i am not excluded.
I try to lay up everytime i get the ball.
The result is painful,not physically but mentally.
The spectator laughed when i couldn't perform a simple lay up.
Till now, i does not really know how to lay up properly.
I tried different ways and imitate different people.
Just then, i have a good opportunity to learn more things(really alot more!)
I can go to the training with a prestigious team.
However, the chances of getting inside the team was slim.
Eventually i could not get enrolled in.
Then, i saw this video!
It was YAO ming!
HE is my idol and he often get fool around in AMerica just because he is the first chinese to get into NBA.
I was upset.
However, many people are accepting him as a professional!
This video inspired me to play basketball even more dedicatedly!
After watching this video, i promised to myself that i will join a team and play for it !
Be it famous or lousy team, i will strive to play hard.
Once i am on the road, i will continue.
The link to the video is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6jRXhj1Pp
PLS PLS take a look.
HE was knocked down by a super star kobe.
He was forced to leave the court.
On the way to the resting room, he insisted that he wants to go back to the court and play again.
Despite his injury, he braved back to the court.
HE said,''I want to go back.''
The second time is ''No i really have to go back''
They won the game 2 match against lakers.
I Believe that persistency is good!
In 9 months time, i will be learning..........motor bike!
HAHA
Why not i weigh the pros and cons.
See if the cons overshadow the pros.
Pros.
Cheap oil refills.
Hard to get caught in jams. (unless it caused the jam*touch wood)
Rather fast.
Cheap at cost,maintanance,servicing etc.
Cool.
Can allow one passenger.preferably girls.JK =p
Easy to manipulate.
Cons.
No air-con.
Not safe.
In case of accident, motor is at most disadvantage.
Hot helmet during day time.
easy to get involve in accident.
Being despise.
Inhale carbon monoxide emitted from exhaust pipes due to imcomplete combustion. CH4(g)+O2(g)=> CO (g) + CO2 (g) +H2O(l)
Sudden increase in carbon monoxide lvl will cause headaches,or even death.
AFter the analysis of the pros and cons.
I hereby decide that no matter what, i will still buy a bike next year.
HEHEHEHEHEHEHE..
The motivation is not there.
Oh i am refering to my motivation to study.
Everyday after i reach home after school, i will see piles of papers waiting for me to read.
Last year, i would slip my bag off my tired shoulder and placed it at the corner of my table.Then i would play or sleep.
This year, i was tensed up. After i removed my heavy load off my shoulder, i would think of studying and studying.Kneading my forehead thinking of what to study.
Now, the thought of studying irks me.My energy was completely drained.
The strategy I adopted SUCKS.
Right now i am going to change my strategy.
PLAY PLAY PLAY.
I am more comfortable with this new strategy and i will adapt to it very fast.
I tore off my study schedule right in front of my studying table.
The tearing sound was fast and sharp.
I crushed my schedule plan using my two hands. Rolled it into a ball and out it goes, to the mid air and gravity does its job.
My schedule plung down to the first storey and lied motionless on the floor.
My new strategy shall show its ultimate power at the very last minute.=)
- Mood:creative
Having said that,i seriously believe that we are capable of doing something great.
Why do i say that?
JUST TAKE A LOOK AT THIS LINK http://sg.video.yahoo.com/watch/4863134/1
INCREDIBLE.
BELIEVE IN YOURSE
- Mood:
crazy
I had forgotten many stuff i learnt in secondary three and four. When i attempted some of the questions regardless of any subjects, 80% of the information had been forgotten.
This is quite disturbing for me. I would crack my brain and think of a solution.
However, everytime i do that, i will have a bad headache.
For the past few days, i have been thinking of a solution to curb this problem.
Today, i went back to where i belong! The basketball court.
I saw those same faces i had not been seeing for the past 2 weeks.
They smiled widely to welcome me and even handed the ball to me spontaneously after i laid down my bag.
He said,''NAH, YOU MUST BE MISSING THE TOUCH OF BASKETBALL. YA?''
I releases my locked eyebrow upon hearing what he said.
I felt a sense of relaxation.
I had never been so relaxed ever since i left the court two weeks ago.
Instantly, i knew the solution to my problem.
I should not be so stressed up about my studies.
I have to get adequate amount of exercises which mean a balanced life.
School work is important but exercising is also important.
Otherwise, i will be leading a plain and retarded life.
Anyway, i am a basketball player because i don't know other sports that well.^^
I curbed my problem by playing and exercising at the right time!
I hope my fellow schoolmates will be healthy and have a balanced life!
GOOD LUCK!
- Mood:
anxious
''AH! I give up!'' I shouted at my maths book as I head towards Pasir Ris Town Park without saying good bye to my friends.
Usually, I would stroll back home but i walked hastily on that day. Kicking everything that obstructed my way. Even dry leaves which were piled up were not spared.
After vending all my frustrations on those leaves, i felt better.
I inhaled deeply and calmed my nerves.
I began walking slowly and admiring the beauty of the park.
Rays of sunlight penetrated through the canopy layer and shone on the ground.
There was apparently no one walking along the path. It was remote despite being in the afternoon.
I slided my handphone out from my pocket, selecting songs i wished to listen.
I picked the song sang by Celine Dion named ''Alone.''
The melodious rhythem drew my attention such that i lip synchronized the song!
Turning my head left and right to admire the mesmerising scenery.
Gentle wind blew and the ripples dancing on the surface of the water in canel.
The water calmed down apart from occasional disturbance caused by guppies.
Ever-green leaves hanging freely on the branches swerved back and forth.
I heard crikets singing its unique tune and echoed.
It was half of my jouney home when my momentum of walking were stopped abruptly.
I saw ants.
They were marching from end of path to another end, carrying something using their feelers.
I took a closer look. It was their food!
My evil intention was building up as i continued observing their marching.
Looking left and right, searching for a long branch.
I found one.
I used the long thin branch and pricked their food off their feelers.
The uniformed marching gone hay wired.
They sprinted in all directions.
However, i noticed some of the ants are struggling to carry their food.
Immediately, i learnt that ants struggle to survive.
My mind thought for a moment. Even ants struggle to carry food back to feed themselves.
Human, who was larger than ants by many times, should learn from them! I thought.
''How can i lose to a question of maths so easily?'' I pondered.
Straight after i reached home, i took out the book and redo the question.
Walking alone in park had helped me learnt that we should not give up easily.
Finally, i had done my part. I had kept my promise and fufilled ur wish. HAHA. Somehow i felt delighted or contented. Anyway both words can describe my feelings.
HAHAHAHAH
